So, its been a big few days for me emotionally, didnt even know what to write. Lol.
Just finished my workout, did shoulders n glutes and plyo.
So, update.. ive relaxed w my attitude towards meals. Last week was an epic flop due to 3 binges. Sat night involved me eating 8 wraps, a tub of peanut butter, a tub of honey and a pack of rice cakes.. maan did i feel yuck yesterday. Ive come to a realisation that my binges are not emotional, its just a battle between my rational and irrational brain. My primal instinct says.. EAT.. but my otherside says no, you want that six pack. Which i do. I freakin love having a six pack.. but i love food too. Food usualy wins. I am not upset eating.. just have this compulsion to eat heaps.
I think its a result of me being anorexic in the past. 4 years of starvation and my brains a little overwhelmed!
Have been running 5 to 15km mst days which is making me more confident bout my legs, just gota make sure i dnt burn myself out.
Me n josh went to the river last nght with some blankets and had subway.. it was so nice to escape life for a bit!
My pills makin me feel ultra watery.. im trying my best not to focus on it and get me down,its hard!
Soz for the gumby brief blog im on my phone, will give ya a better update tmrw
X Sam
No comments:
Post a Comment