Alllrighty, day twos going good so far haha. I actually feel really good writing about my day... it makes me make sense of things and help me prioritize a bit more and I get to vent all the shifty things... if your in a rut start doing a daily journal.. you don't have to share it, just do it for your own piece of mind.
So got up first thing and I felt real good inside. I feel less bloated, obviously hormones are settling down after all the stress I have been through. Woke up excited for breakfast for a change.. lately I just haven't wanted to stomach anything!! So I had 1/2c oats, 3x egg whites and some PB2 and cinnamon.. along w all my vitamins.
Took my fatburner, roxylean this morning too and had the worst niacin flush... it feels like your skin is sunburnt and somebody's rubbing you on carpet lol. Its just an adverse reaction.. it's pretty rare but totally fine, so if you have this experience from a fat burner or pre trainer then don't freak lol!!! One thing I am really focussing on is not being too reliant on fat burners, and making sure I'm putting full focus into my meals. I don't take one everyday just every couple of days w breakfast. After all the years of drug abuse in an being cautious as to what my chemicals are doing, esp w what's been going on regarding pregnancy.
Did a 30m stair walk.. I Just took it real slow and did my best to enjoy it... fuuckkkk I notice the few extra kgs when running or walking And it sucks... but I'm just sticking in and doing my best to not let it get to me.
We all gotta start somewhere.
Meal 2 n 3 down all gravy, I actually enjoyed them!! 😊
Drinking water as often as i can... I'm a shocker lol so I add some aminos and it makes life easier.
I'm making it easier by just going day by day... if I look at how far I have to go I feel like crying and throwing in the towel.. but looking at it As if I have 7 days to make a difference and each day counts it's muuuch more manageable.
Going out for tea to nandos and going bowling... first time I have gone out since all this shit has gone down!! I'm a lil nervous but I have the best company. .. baby steps 😉
Its about 5pm now and I would have had a binge by about 2pm, andddd I haven't. I've been thinking about food all day seriously it's driving me nuts... but I'm just keeping myself busy.
I'm feeling good.. well better physically. Not as bloated.. still not happy w where I am but I'm better than I was yesterday. I seem to have all the answers.. it's just a matter of listening to my own advice and applying it.
4 days no binges! Yay.
Sam over out xx
No comments:
Post a Comment