Having a real hard day today w my legs.
Everyone's asleep at home and I started picking the choc out of the scroggin. I quickly stopped myself n now in writing this.
I'm struggling to accept where my legs are ATM... I hate being bottom heavy. That solid few weeks of binging basically put me back to sq one. Every time i look down at them or c them in the mirror i want to cry or spew.. Anybody else know this feeling???
Positive side .. I swear I saw an ab this morning lol . ill take it.
Haven't really been hungry today.. From treat meal last night I think.
Just been for a run, I was going to take a nap but i thought I'd give myself a wee challenge to run.. I did OK! Is it weird that i prefer the treadmill than outside?
Anyways.. Being about accountability n all I'm going to just track my leg progress.
Seriously all i wanna do is go to the beach, run in shorts, wear a short dress and not feel like a self conscious short whale.
Patience murphy.
X sam
you have done so well Sam! Try not think of the food you are eating when 'emotional eating'...like you say, it's a slow and steady progress that wont change over night, and I have to admit, you are doing amazing! Look at the progress you have made so far, and the journey that is ahead of you. You have competed, yes. You were leaner than now, yes...but who ever said you can't get there again. The road may be longer and not as fast as you would like, but learn to love it and it will love you back. You will be a happier and healthier person at the end of it :) Keep it up Sam!
ReplyDeleteOh wow :) THankyou SO much.. seriously, you dont know how much this means to hear this!! :) Thanks xx
DeleteI'm a recovering addict who was hopelessly addicted also to junk food and cola. I'm now a fintness junkie. This progression from being clean to getting fit has been 3 years, 1 of which (the last year) has been one of the best of my life. I myself suffer anxiety and have bipolar disorder. I didn't leave the house for 3 months and that's where my journey began. I am pretty toned now and very happy. I didn't change my eating till only about a month ago. It was hard at first but I love it now. I feel more energetic and positive. We all have our down times but remember you are resilient and strong and being fit and healthy is more important than being lean. Lean will come eventually. It takes longer than you think sometimes. Highly recommend T25 for your legs btw :) you're doing well. I love reading your posts. I feel a lot like you at times. You are not alone.
DeleteWow! elysha, big hugs :) Thankyou for sharing your story! We sure do huh! I'm feeling better today, it's a win lose process but I win more than I lose :) What is T25? Thanks for your feedback too! :) xxx
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