Today's been good, once again, keeping myself as BUSY as possible, without too much stress. It can be hard working for yourself!
Have a few ideas what to do photography wise, thanks to my love Tiare :)
I ran 5km this morn! wooo! felt good man, its such a good feeling when you FEEL YOUR LEGS LEANING OUT! Yeah budday!!
So.. I'm getting fucking stage hungry again, this time however, I wanna knock shit outta deeeee park. It'll be a lil secret.. but I'm looking at either figure or physique next year.. meaning I get to build some muscle and cut down super lean - all with a better attitude, eat to grow and eat to better myself physically and mentally. Yeah I know, it's a lil crazy. A lot of ppl say "Oh you should never compete again" God get fucked lol I'll do what I wanna do, sorry dont wanna sound mean lol buttttt I do THESE things to challange myself. That is what I require, what I desire. I'm hungry for it, and I'm willing to slowly taper down and do the steps necessary, and do it justice this time. No more half assing. I've been honest to myself and something, something is calling my name - I'm listening to inside and I can feel something bubbling so I'm just going w it! Wether it's meant to be or not, I'm not sure. But hussssssssh, I'm gonna keep doing my best everyday atm!
MAN IM HUNGRY TODAY my metabolism is just hungry for foooooooood lol ahhhhhhh hahaha! Oh well must power through, I can feel myself leaning out slowly it's so good! Yay :) Dedicated dedicated lol I go to think about food, had an inner conflict between a questbar and protein shake this avo but went for PROTEIN SHAKE! Muahahah win.
But yes, won't dwell over things as much and time to let life run it's course I think!
No training tonight I'm so tired! So gonna go home and have a nap lol, cook some meals n get an early night in!
I've gone back on the mini pill so I"m a bit nervous if I'm going to get weight gain, so making sure I keep as level headed as poss!!
Anyway nothing too major to report today... dying for some Almond butter lol :( Wah. Gotta wait till sat tho!
#willpowerrrrrrr
xx S
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